The Weaponless Warriors

You come across some books along the way that just inspire, even if it’s only one line, but so much stays with me from this book, ‘The Weaponless Warriors’ by Richard Kim, 1974, this is a very inspirational book as to what you can achieve by putting effort into something, and just keep at it, the results and stories from this book are incedible, but the main part from this book that inspired me now, despite reading this many years ago, and helped with my current health situation are the lines:-

“In a life and death situation, choose death instantly, and you will have the strength of ten people.”

Being told sixteen months ago I have lung cancer, and only an average of a year to live, and if it gets in your brain there’s nothing we can do! Well both of these are up now and I’m still here, still smiling, still believing I’ll be here for years yet, cancer bit off more than it could chew when it tried to pick on me. And reading the lines above, they had a profound effect on me, the first one being, I would of just run away from any situation like that! And chosen life instantly, but when it’s cancer, there’s nowhere to run, you can’t hide, so taking these words into account and actually doing them, something I never thought I could do or had any strength inside me to do, these were properly trained unarmed warriors, not happy go lucky truck drivers from England, this was their culture, how they were brougth up from childhood, instilled into them from such an early age. And yet here I was being influenced by these amazing people, and taking on their attitude to this new thing I had, cancer. I had spent my whole life being scared of dying, and then someone upsets your wife by saying you have cancer and that you only have an average of a year left to live, I don’t think so Doc!

Ok bring it on, take your best shot cancer, because your gonna need it, and almost immediatley I’m there, in the zone, like these amazing warriors, them with their years of their diligent training, and I’m about to take on terminal cancer, with no other result in mind except of kicking it’s arse out of my life once and for all, however long it will take. cancer is a dirty little fighter, you get told it’s dying off from your bones, then after going vegan, your cancer is dormant five months later, but the dirty sly bastard is plotting and a few cells left in my lower left rib and start to generate, a little in my pelvis, and then the sneaky little twat sprouts a few in my brain, again bring it on, and if that’s all you’ve got cancer then I feel sorry for you, I know your going for a TKO, you want me to give up, but that just ain’t happening, ever! I’m in this for the victory, and nothing less, no compromise, no nothing your out, and I won’t stop until you are out of me, absolutely everywhere of me. Not one cell will be left behind, I can assure you cancer. According to the doctors charts, when you get this far, that means I must only have a short time left, cancer I laugh in your face! 6 to 12 weeks, “Yeah whatever!” In this life and death situation, I choose death instantly, and now I feel no fear of you, and I really don’t, it is a weird feeling knowing I now have this power over cancer, and not the other way around, of cancer controlling me, and making me feel down, and trying to get me to submit and give it all up. And getting this just from reading a book, and it was a good twenty five years ago as well, not a recent read, and then I remember selling the book at a boot sale, all the time wishing I was keeping it, but happy someone would make good use of it, and also be inspired by it. But at the time, a home clear out and a few extra pounds was more impotant.

A great review of this book.

It just seems weird that those lines in one book, that I happen to be given, had such an effect on me so many years later, but still gave me so much strength , and having no idea I could ever be that strong in the face of something that is supposed to bring so much terror and fear to so many, and here I am, “Yeah whatever cancer, bring it on!” A slight tweak of the grey cells and power that then comes out is unbelievable, and strength, with plenty of belief behind it as well, it is truly astounding. I have to thank my friend Martin who I worked with all those years ago for giving or selling me that book, and plenty of other books he kept plying me with, on martial arts and history, I’ve loved both subjects for years now. So you’ll never know how much you have in side you until you really need it, but trust me when I say it is inside you to be so much more than what you think you actually are, it’s already in there just waiting to come out, sitting quietly, ready for the right time to just let you know, it has your back if you ever need it, and it is a huge comfort to know it’s there, even if you have no idea of it yet, it is there looking out for you. The power of the mind is amazing, when it’s on your side and you face something like cancer, it really does give you the strength of ten people, instantly.

I wanted to share this as it really has helped with this fight with cancer and I’m going all the way with this, none of your ten rounds and then a split decision, this is all the way to the bitter end, one of us ain’t coming out of this alive, and it isn’t going to me snuffing it, just a matter of time cancer and your gone!

Thank you for taking the time to read another of my blogs, it is appreciated, Don’t be afraid of lung cancer, always 100% positive, take care and see you again here soon, and once more:-

“In a life and death situation, choose death instantly, and you will have the strength of ten people.”

Some things can’t be repeated enough, and I hope I can inspire someone to take up the fight against this dirty little sly coward of a disease, and kick the hell out it so it doesn’t come back any more, good luck in all your battles and journeys.

All Ways Look On The Bright Side Of Life!

If you don’t know this song then immediately go and watch ‘The Life Of Brian!’ You’ll love it, and just what the doctor ordered. I love to watch a film and laugh along to it, action films can be entertaining and I use to love the cowboy films, but give me a comedy any day, and I’m happy, it doesn’t even have to be side splitting, just seeing someone trying to make an effort to make someone laugh is enough for me, I think it’s a great gift to have, not just the ability to get someone in stitches laughing their head off, but just trying to get someone to have a laugh, even if it doesn’t work, the fact that they’re trying is a great gift too. My kids will bore you to death telling you how funny I am, or maybe they won’t, but I try to dish out my best dad jokes, ‘oh god dads off again!’ A new years eve special, “See you next year” never fails, but there’s always a smile, even if it is a slightly embarressed smile sometimes. But it’s just the wanting to spread a little joy and laughter about the place, the world needs more fun, it was never meant to be serious.

I had a few days at Mums last week, letting mum be a mum again for a few days, a very nice relaxing couple of days, and my sister Nesta popped over from her job in France, and seeing another brother Gwyn, so was a really nice time. We had a breakfast at Felixstowe then a walk along the beach with a little paddle too, very nice, some, most would say cold, I like to call it refreshing, luckily there is a sandy part to the beach, but the few stones that were there were uncomfortable on the cold feet. I feel I could of got in and had a swim but not having a towel, and the wind I gave up on that. But I would like to get a swim in soon, hopefully this week, as I’m having radiotherapy this week in Southend, hopefully I’ll get a short dip in soon. Now that will be refreshing. Looking forward to report on that one very soon.

Friday I had my first appointment for my radiotherapy on my brain, so this was a fitting for my mask, which is used to keep your head still while they zap away, keeping your head perfectly still. It took 12 minutes to have this hot plastic on your face, then moulded to your contours, then ice packs, to keep it in place, and if I was a green alien, this could be me as one, well I do have to say I’m not bad looking as a little green alien,

I start my radiotherapy on Monday afternoon, and have five sessions, so I come in each day Mon to Fri, then I’m allowed to bring my mask home, could be fun in the passenger seat holding this up to other motorists or passengers, turning to see a green head looking at them, I’ll try it for fun but not to scare the life out of someone, so I won’t be doing it to any drivers, I swear, but the bus passengers better look out. As I have said and is on my blog site, our daughter and son in law, Lib and Chris, have their buisness, ‘South East Hot Tubs,’ and have their own hot tub in their garden now, it would of been rude not to try it out, and OMG it is so nice, you could sleep in it all night long, it’s so relaxing, and not even the pouring rain could spoil it, intermitant rain rather than one long downpour. We were in there for about 2 hours, and the grandchildren love it too, so no telly, no phones or computers, a great place to relax and chill out away from modern technology for a while and everyone loved it.

Life is going great at the moment, I’ve got more visits from family, even a flying visit from Japan coming up, another brother, Morien, just popping over as you do from such a distant land, but the effort being made for you, and knowing it’ll be so nice to see these people and spend a few days together is so heart warming. And more locally there will be visits from Manchester, Ceri, Cheshire Dad and Lorna, with the dogs Madge and Leo, Leo’s a cancer survivoring Labrador, and Wales, Gareth, again more great family to see. To know that I still have all my brothers and sisters, and Mum and Dad, I know I’m very privileged to have them, and for them all to still want to see me and spend some quality time is very humbling, and fills you with so much joy that we’ll be meeting up in the next month or so with my whole family, and looking forward to seeing each one of them, despite being spread out around the country and the world, we’re still a very close family even though we can go years sometimes without seeing each other, but there’s plenty of other ways we know we’re not far away from each other if we ever need anything. Just before getting my original diagnosis, my brother messaged and said, “I’ll be in the next room when your in with the doctor,” We had our bedrooms next door to each other when we were growing up, well that got me going I can tell you, my tears didn’t last long, as they never have all through this, but Gareth is responsible for some of my first tears with all this cancer crap, I’m saving the great big out pouring of tears for the day I beat all these terminal diagnosis’s, and finally get the all clear and told, “That’s it Mr James, I’m not exactly sure how you did it, but you beat it, now get out of here!” This day will come, eventually!

I love this quote from Bruce Lee, and is at the beginning and end of my book, a great reminder of a great attitude to anything, especially cancer.

Thank you for taking the time to read my blog, hopefully helping to spread a little joy and laughter, I love to see someone with a smile, and the satisfaction of knowing you put it there is amazing. Take care and see you soon, Don’t be afraid of lung cancer, always 100% positive, and watch out for a green alien going home on Friday from Southend to Basildon, you have been warned. And spread a little happiness as you go by!