Its been a while but with my fourth time in hospital this year, I’ve not had too much time for blogging yet, so while I have the chance, lets do it. The last two times in hospital have been because I was exhausted, I could hardly walk from from the toilet back to the front room and I only live in a small flat, the hospital said I had blood clots popping up in my leg, bowl and lung, I’m on blood thinning injections, but have to be careful as these could cause more bleeding, which I was having from my bowel, so this has to be carefully balanced and monitored. But I feel a lot better in myself now, especially being home again now, I’m tired and my legs feel very weak, stairs are hard, even just one step, but I can get about in the flat ok. We have ordered an excercise bike I can have a go to hopefully build up some strength in my legs over the next few months, even if it’s just a few minutes at a time, not over doing it, but a little and often.
With the bleeding I was having from my bowel, this was a worry, especially as in January my oncologist had said I only had 6-12 weeks left, what if he’s right? Not much I can do if he is, apart from stay positive, which I have been. One thing I found very hard was the fact they wanted to put a camera down my throat, you have to swallow this to help it go down, I struggle to get a capsule tablet my throat, let alone a camera, I refused this treatment several times while in hospital, it terrifies me, the thought of choking on this camera, knowing there’s no way I could swallow it. They started by putting a camera up the other way first to see if they can see what the problem was. This camera was not long enough so they asked if they could try down my throat, but I refused, several attempts later they said, “your booked in for this treatment tomorrow” I kept quiet, went to the canteen with my wife and daughter, Lib, and knew I had to try, absolutly terrified, but got to try. A few deep breaths, and I agreed to give it a go, and went round my 4 bed ward and stated I’m giving it a go, I slept well that night, and the bonus was I knew the porter who came for to take me too the Endoscopy unit, very well, so this relaxed me, and I showed him my West Ham United boxers, Mick supports Chelsea, so we had a laugh about that, I let him know how scared I was and all the staff I met in the unit, and they were able to sedate me, so much so I never felt a thing, to my huge relief, but again they didn’t find the problem, so a colon endoscopy was called for, not a problem I thought, but I had to drink 4 litres of Kleen Prep, oh my god, this was disgusting, and 4 litres of it, this was so hard to get down, I was quite confident I didn’t need 4 litres , as my appitite has been very small for a few weeks, so there wasn’t too much to clear out before the procedure, but the staff were quite insistant that I drink it all. Success, they found what they were looking for and wasn’t as serious as they thought it was, and I was allowed home and feeling ok, ready to get some strength back, and I’d say normallity, but with the corona virus, that went out of the window almost straight away, but at least I can rest fully now.
I must thank all the NHS staff for the way they just carry on daily despite the risks they take with the possible cases of this virus, let alone all the other virus’s and diseases they come up against, just as a daily routine, always putting their patients first, never themselves, one nights applauding isn’t enough, they really are amazing. I worked at Basildon Hospital for 13 years as a porter from 29 years ago to 16 years ago, best job I ever had, it just didn’t pay enough, so I went lorry driving for 15 years, and really enjoyed that, but then got lung cancer from somewhere, so I’m still off sick, and having some treatment for it, and always 100% positive, and we’ll see where we go from here, ask me and it’s onwards and upwards, the docs might tell you something different, but that’s in one ear and out of the other with me. TO ALL THE NHS STAFF, I THANK YOU FOR YOUR DEDICATION TO YOUR DUTY. YOU REALLY ARE ALL TRULY AMAZING.
I also have to thank my wife Sonia for looking after me so well and making sure I have everything I need and want, and also our daughter and son in law, Lib and Chris for taking me to hospital and bringing me home again, whenever I needed it. I couldn’t have done this without all this help.
With this strange situation most of the world finds itself in at the moment, I must say it has brought out the best in so many people, but at the same time can bring out the worst in others, a school was robbed of what food it had in it’s kitchen, a policeman was spat at, by someone saying they had the corona virus, and another ridden into as he was trying to police the self separating zone, and had his leg broken, people just trying to do their job, and keep people safe, and get through this smoother and safer, but there’s always a bunch of idiots to spoil it and make it more dangerous for everyone else. PLEASE STAY IN AND SELF ISOLATE, IF WE ALL DO THEN THIS WILL BE OVER QUICKER WITH LESS CASUALTIES, WHICH CAN ONLY BE GOOD FOR EVERYONE!
Take care stay safe, thank you for taking the time to read my blog, it is apprieciated, always 100% positive, Don’t be afraid of lung cancer. Hopefully be blogging again very soon.